Cheers to an update post that is longgggggggg overdue. Life has been crazy and honestly I’ve felt pretty unmotivated recently. Enough so to slack on posting 2-3times a week and creating content that I loved.
All of a sudden everything changed. My whole world, and I wasn’t able to adapt easily or quickly. So here we are now.
First and foremost, I graduated college.
Where I started this blog was in North Carolina. It was the place where I was most comfortable producing content since it was where I started everything. I had more freedom at school and coming home was just so much of a change and I felt like I had lived in chaos for the first few weeks I had moved back home too.
I was living out of suitcases because we were painting my room (3 gallons of paint later and numerous days and we got the color right). We also painted my furniture. So I wasn’t even living in my room, I was living out of bags since I couldn’t really put anything away and truly staying in another room.
For the first two weeks of being home, I tried and tried to sit down and write. But I just couldn’t bring myself to work on the posts I had little to no progress on. I just felt like my inner flame had sizzled out.
Anyway, I am very lucky to have graduated school and then 3 weeks later, accept a job offer and start right away. I’m not complaining at all. But I’ve just stretched myself a little thin. Seeing family, catching up with people over drinks, boating, and then fully planned days on the weekend has left me exhausted and unmotivated to do anything other than the bare necessities.
But there have been so many good things that have brought so much happiness to my life recently as well, even through the 24/7 tired feeling.
I’m finally home with my friends that I haven’t seen more than here and there for the past 4 years. Friends of friends are coming from out of town that I’ve been lucky to meet, I’ve been able to see my family more than I ever have been in the past 4 years. I’m able to see my family (since I’m living at home) and not pay for groceries. And seeing my sisters since we are all home at the same time before spreading out around the world again.
I’ve just kept myself VERRYYYY busy since may and now I’m ready to sizzle down a bit and refocus, thrive off of busyness and hustle a little more.